Sunday, April 4, 2010
I have no idea what I weigh today. It bothers me when I don't. I almost feel lost. I feel out of sorts without it. Yesterday was an ok eating day. Not 100% on plan, but didn't go too overboard either. Still, I feel restless. I have to wait until tomorrow to see how the scale God will shine upon me. Today the plan is to be OP. What strikes me funny today is that for 2 years I never weighed myself and the result was huge. I was huge. I didn't focus and I just accepted that I was huge. It really wasn't until an old grade school friend made a comment on facebook that I stopped and allowed myself to consider my hugeness. She said how I look just like my mother when we were kids. Really? Yep, I did. That stopped me cold in my tracks. It isn't that my mother was so bad or so unattractive. It was her size. The very thing I vowed never to get to. And there it was, plain as day. I looked like my mother.