Yesterday, I saw an old friend who was asking me about the surgery. I sort of like talking about it because it was really a big deal and I usually don't spend so much time on stuff like that. Anyway, I was chattering on about the day of and after and then the weeks that have followed. I started to hear myself say that I would not do this over again. In fact, what I heard was a sentence that completely took me by surprise. It went like this. "If I had known that it was going to hurt to eat, I don't know that I would have done this." And, I think it is true. At this moment in time, and despite the weight loss, I don't know that I would do this again. I have heard from everyone that has had the surgery that they wish they had done it sooner. Really? Hmmm. Honestly, I have had a relatively easy time in comparison to others, but I feel different. It is an odd think to know that your body has been altered. I don't regret the reasons I did this, I think that they were honest. But, I am tired a lot and eating is a friggin chore. So, there, I said it.
I can safely assume that I will feel differently at some point, but this is how I feel now.