Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Holding Back the Tears
Weight today 219. Sucks, but down -2 from yesterday. The weekend was full of gastronimical delight and plenty of wine. Went to Eugene for the weekend and we ate out two nights in a row. Beppe and Gianis and Soriah. Both were exceptional. At Beppe's I had pork shoulder in a tomato sauce with risotto. I left half of the dinner behind in an attempt to eat more reasonably. The cesar salad was to die for and I ate all of that. Did not have bread. At Soriah's I had rib eye steak with mash and again, cesar salad, no bread. I didn't eat all the steak and was careful to cut out the fat. The sauce on the steak was divine goganzola. I really worked hard not to eat poorly at the home show and did find a salad to eat. What worked: me being careful. What didn't: me eating chips before bed. Ok. So, I have progressed and for that I need to acknowledge myself. I still need to control the wine consumption. So, Sunday we go out and eat at Pastini. I have the meatballs sans cheese and a cesar salad. I think I see a trend here. Flash forward to Monday morning. Headache from wine and weight is 221. Now, I am holding back the tears. It is just so hard to see the weight go up and I keep sabotaging myself. By the way, I also took a walk with Bella, my border collie of about a mile and one half. Didn't my body recognize my ill attempts at control? Guess not.