Why do I post my weight here? It is all about me and my consuming desire to lose. Posting that number keeps me focused on my goal and I am ok with it for now. It is a reality check.
I read Lyn's blog today about this journey to lose and she has some really good points about not ever being finished. I was working in the premise of an end to this weight loss and really, there isn't an end. I will always need to consider my food choices carefully. Lyn talks about how this is not just a number on a scale, but it is the day by day decisions we make about our choices for food. Here I am at 49 and still don't have shit figured out. Somehow, I thought experience/age brought some sort of relief on that front. Really, I have to adjust my thinking. This is a journey and it is not a sprint. It is a marathon. Hmmm.
On another front, It seems I have entered a new phase in my life; menopause. The hot flashes are constant now and they interrupt my sleep. I have them all day long and all night. Sometimes the flushed skin and sweat takes my breath away as it comes on fast and furious. The hot flashes themselves are not so bad, but here we go again with my body changing without much input or consideration from me. I don't have bad feelings about menopause. I know some do. I can accept that I am changing, but does it have to happen so quickly? I am not interested in hormone therapy for a variety of reasons. I may change my mind on this if the symptoms continue as they are. Ahh life.