Six weeks will have passed on Thursday since surgery. In total, I have lost an amazing 43 lbs. Twenty five since surgery might seem like a low number, but when I think about it in terms of the loss before surgery day, it makes sense.
So, how do I feel? Low energy seems to plague me most of the time. I know it is due to the lack of calories. My meals consist of 1/4 cup at a time. Any more than that, and I am in pain. I have only brought food up once and it was brutal. I returned back to work and did not pay attention to how big a bite and swallowed a piece of chicken as big as my thumb nail. Tears streamed down my face as I waited to have this expelled. The pain was some of the worst I have experienced. Since then, it hurts to eat. So, pretty bummed about that.
Everything is hard. Eating, bathroom activities, and exercise, are all hard.
Am I sorry that I did the surgery? I can't say that. I am not sorry that I no longer have GERD, am no longer prediabetic, or have sleep apnea. I am not sorry that I am on my way towards a healthier lifestyle and body. But, this isn't easy and it isn't for the faint of heart.
Would I do this again? I don't know. I need to give this more time.
I admire you for taking the step to have the surgery. I have a friend who had the surgery in April (2014) - we planned to both do it but I chickened out/was also told I wasn't a good candidate - I went the route of a medically supervised weight loss plan and am down 118 pounds since April 15th. My friend is down 80 pounds since her surgery date, which was May 23rd. We've been friends since we were 13 (we are both now 49) - we are supporting each other on our respective journeys and I know it helps to be doing this with her.
ReplyDeleteI hope that in the end the surgery brings you every success and joy you hoped it would!
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Thank you, Janet. Hardest decision in my life. At this point, I can only say that I hope it is worth it.
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